Simon Reinhardt
I dont sleep anymore. I weaned myself off it
quite awhile ago, and now I dont need to anymore. It started about two years ago. I
was getting fed up with how little I got done, and I blamed it on how much I slept. I used
to be a borderline narcoleptic, and I hadnt found a medicine that worked.
"So," I proclaimed, "Ill cure myself."
I made a schedule. Each month I would cut off one hour of sleep.
Generally the first week of the month was a trifle difficult, but by the end of the month
I would become fully adjusted. And soon, I stopped sleeping.
It was wonderful, at first. People dont realize how much you can
accomplish with those extra hours. Most people give up a third of their day to sleep, and
are satisfied with. Sleep is a drug, and Ive kicked my addiction. I cleaned up my
house, put everything away, swept, vacuumed, all at night when most people would be lying
inert, useless. This left me free to spend my day however I saw fit. My life was vastly
improved. I still had work, but that took only a few hours of my day. I saw movies, took
walks, and went to museums. However, I was not satisfied with this. I had cut down on
sleep to accomplish things, and, as much as I enjoyed my leisure, I needed something more.
And so, I began to write. I wrote many things. I wrote fiction, essays,
criticism, nothing was off-limits to me. Furthermore, I was successful. I was pleased with
everything I wrote and most of it got published.
My friends were curious as to how Id turned my life around. They
said they were eager to do whatever it was that I had done. Anything to be that
successful, they said. However, when I described my methods to them, they refused to
believe me. Only one of them tried my method, and he quit after a few weeks. It seems that
many people lack the self-control needed for my regimen.
Still, I pressed on. I decided to branch out. In addition to writing, I
began to paint. Soon I had plans to direct a movie. The movie ended up in development hell
and never got made, but my paintings were well received and my writing continued to get
published.
For awhile, everything was going well. Then, it all fell apart.
Painting was the first thing to go. It stopped as abruptly as it had started. Then, I
gradually stopped writing. At first it was only a reduced work load, but soon I was only
writing occasionally, and then, not at all. Looking back on that period Ive realized
what went wrong. I ran out of ideas. I had written and painted everything I could without
repeating myself. My creative drive was spent, my inspiration dried up.
I had quit my job earlier because I hadnt needed it. I still
didnt need a job and couldnt motivate myself to get a new one. I was set for
life and felt no reason to be doing more menial labor, even if it was the only way to
occupy myself. And so I found myself, for the first time in ages, with nothing to do. I
became a ghost in my own apartment. I walked through the halls, staring blankly, doing
nothing. The days were interminable, and, since I didnt sleep, they all bled into
one another. Eventually, the misery became overwhelming and I left.
I walked through the streets of the city in much the same way I had
haunted my apartment. For days on end I walked through the city without doing anything. My
condition began to deteriorate. I hadnt eaten in about a week. My eyes were sunken
and my body was exhausted. Still, I could not justify wasting my time sleeping.
I sat down on a bench in the park. A group of kids was running around
and playing near the bench. They were loud and obnoxious. I hated them. One of the kids
pointed at me and shouted, "Look! A junkie!" The kids all circled around the
bench. They were chanting and jumping around. It was demonic. I got up and lashed out at
one of the kids, but I overexerted myself, and fell to the ground. The kids ran away.
Soon, however, one of the kids returned. A police officer was walking
with him. I cursed. "Yes sir. Thats him," the kid said, pointing at me.
The policeman walked me to his car, and took me to jail. The trial was short; I was in no
condition to defend myself, and didnt have much of a case anyway.
So here I am, in prison, recording my experience. It turns out I have
one more story to write. Ive found I cant sleep now even when I try. The other
inmates sleep as much as they can. I envy them, the escape must be nice. Still, I know
that its not for me. Ive got better things to be doing with my time.